Overwhelmed much?
My mind is a clutter and the thoughts are every where, on every thing I need to accomplish or want to accomplish and it’s making it so hard get anything done. This funk is typical after my little depressing moment and it too will pass and I will once again be able to line those ducks into a row. But right now, I’m doing what I call thinking in circles. I have jotted some notes and they help but sometimes I think of an item that needs to get done when I’m not near a pen and those get lost, to come up again and again until they either a.get done or b.get written down. Then they are still not out of the circle of thoughts and when it passes through my brain, yet once more, and I grab that pen to write it down I find it is already on the list or I remember I’ve already done it.
But at times that chemo brain thing kicks in and I think I’ve already done it just to find out or figure out hours later that nope, it had been forgotten. It is a mess and I’m so thankful to have husband who comprehends how incapable, unreliable, I am at times like these. Just breath in, breath out, organize those thoughts and prioritize them and pray that a huge, important thing has not been forgotten.
Peaceful.
PS - Mom's always know the deepest thoughts of their child, no matter how old that child is and while I may be able to cover up well to the world, my mom knows the second I start talking all upbeat and happy and everything's fine that I'm a big fat liar. Anyone know of any ways to trick mom?
Hi Lisa. You know you should really write a book on all this. Can you
imagine how much help it would be to someone else who is/has gone through
cancer and chemo. When I read your post, I can really see myself in just
the same place having just he same thoughts. I know all of them are
perfectly normal and in a terribly abnormal situation. Is it really any
comfort to know that it is perfectly normal to feel that way. I would like
to say something to bring you comfort but I don't think I would want anyone
to try to convince me of that if I was in your shoes. Do you find that it
is just better to take a few days to feel miserable and then you can get
back to being your regular self? I do sometimes. Even when I know I am
depressed and acting out of depression, sometimes I just have to be that
way. Then in a day or so, I snap out of it and go back to being my regular
cheerful self. And you're right that it is very hard to fool your mother.
Isn't it hard for your kids to fool you? Somehow I can read them like a
book most of the time. Anyway, all this to say that I care about you and
about what you are going through and I wish I could help in some way but I
don't know what to do to make that happen. Cathy
I have thought about the book idea, I remember you guys encouraging me to
do that while I was going through chemo, who knows maybe. I really do want
people to realize they're not alone in how they feel while going through
all this. I looked for information like that while I was going through it.
You can never fool Mom. That's what makes her so special.
Love the tranquility picture!
Don't try to trick mom. It never works. The only option is to not talk to
her, which isn't very nice at all.
Goth and Jessica - Dang! I was hoping you all would have some wonderful
ideas for pulling the wool over mom's eyes but apparently moms are just too
smart for their children's own good. Hope you heard that kids, I know what
you're doing. :)
Sorry, it is impossible. And not only can you not trick a Mo, but they can
break down your dang defences so fast. If I am even slightly upset my Mom
can have me bawling in 2.4 seconds.
Oh Serina, I hear that! I have tried many times to convince mom that
everything's ok when it's not and it does not work, ever and yes I usually
end up in tears. :)
Hey Lisa, love the picture. One can never, EVER, fool Mom. At least, I
never could. My daughter has not had success with that either. Hope
tomorrow's a better day!!
Why would we want to trick our moms?
Don't I have you bookmarked? I swear I had you bookmarked, but none of
these recent posts look familiar. Goodness. I've got to get those things
organized. And I need little notes to remind me who everyone is and what
kind of things I like on their blogs. So, Lisa would be really cool nature
photos:o)