photos from a roadtrip and ramblings of the mind
I’m guilty of withholding information. Heck, I’m sure we all withhold information but, this information is rattling around in my head and messing up everything I attempt the last couple of days.
The thing is I have been having some little pains above my right breast and there is swelling/lump/bulge/something under my right arm. To be safe I called the oncologist and I’ll be seeing him tomorrow but in the mean time I keep worrying. And I’m not even worrying about what you probably think I’m worrying about. Nope. I always gotta be different.
I am worrying that I’m wasting the oncologist’s time and he will say it’s just a swollen lymph node or something. I’m worrying that I’m too freaking paranoid and that I overreact. Then I’m worrying that if I ignore something like this it will turn up being something really bad by the time the doctors discover it, because I thought it was nothing. But it probably is nothing. But do I act like it’s nothing? Or do I act like it’s something just to find out it’s nothing? But what if it is something? Maybe I’m overreacting.
Well, maybe I’ll be able to sleep tonight, now that I’ve gotten that off my chest. See I’m not worried about more cancer, in my mind it can never be cancer, I barely believed them the first time, er uh, the only time. No I’m worried that the swollen-lump-thing-a-majig will just disappear over night and when I see Dr Onc. he will see nothing wrong and think I’m mental. I’ve made my husband look and feel and confirm that it wasn’t just in my mind but still what if it vanishes?
You see my dilemma? I probably lost ya.
Take care of yourself. Even if it's nothing, better to have it confirmed
so you don't worry about it. Great photos too - I can't believe all of
that snow.
Keep us posted! It's better to be safe than sorry!!! =)
I hope all turns out okay. I do understand what you are saying, and I
think women in general are all a bit that way. I will keep you in my
prayers.
for some reason I can't load the pictures tonight. Darn!
It's never a waste of time to make sure you're okay. I'm sure your doctor
would be the first one to tell you that. Hope everything is okay!
Not just you...we are all like that I think. Who gives a crap what the doc
thinks. Better to be safe then sorry. You did the right think. You are
on my mind and in my prayers. Let us know. Your road trip pictures are
gorgeous. Gotta love that camera of yours!!
Lisa, been there done that. Having also had cancer (thyroid) I went into
meltdown last year when I found another lump in my neck thyroid cancer
rarely spreads.
Well, shoot! I sure hope you're wasting his time! I'll be praying for
you. Beautiful photos, btw.
Lisa, I understand what you are saying. Especially as women, we don't like
to call attention to ourselves, we don't want to make a big deal out of
nothing, we don't want to worry people, we don't want to waste other
people's time etc, etc, etc. But, here comes the lecture, what would you
want your kids to do if they had something questionable? What would you
want your grandson to do if he had something that could be something or
nothing? What about me or any of your other friends? You would tell us that
it is better to have it looked at and be nothing than to ignore it and it
be something. What would your doctor rather you do? Come in when you have
nothing or come to him/her when it was too late to help you and be faced
with saying...if only you had come in earlier, I could have helped. Enough
lecture, you did the right thing. Go and let them tell you it is
nothing...they will be much happier when they leave work that day than the
alternative, months from now. They will be very happy to be able to give
someone good news. Don't you know they get tired of having to bring bad
news. So you are actually doing them a favor by giving them a chance to
give someone good news for a change.
I think if there was a "once" that you cannot be too careful...only YOU
know your body..I'm sure that since the doctor gets paid the big bucks he
will see alot of swollen lymph nodes in his life, it's HIS job to know the
difference, not yours..Your job is to take care of yourself, which you are
doing.
Extra prayers for you that the swollen lymph nodes don't become
bothersome..
Hugs!
What everyone else said! That and better to waste their time than yours,
you know? Thinking of and praying for you! Big Hugs!
I totally understand what you're saying. However, I'm so glad you're
having it checked out as it's better to understand and have confirmation of
exactly what is going on in your body. I don't really know what else to
say except that I'm thinking of you and sending good vibes your way. Big
hugs.
It could be an ingrown hair or something as benign, but wouldn't you rather
know? You will not be wasting your doctor's time, that is what they are
there for.
Your train of thought sounds like what would go on in my head. I am glad
you are getting it checked out though. You will be in my thoughts, sending
good vibes and lots of HUGS!!
i had a lump and the thought is that it was a cyst. i made my hubby feel it
two or three times before going to the doctor, then the surgeon. the tests
couldnt confirm anything and we moved before a 6 mo follow up, although it
had gone down completely and couldnt feel it at all anymore, now its back,
to me confirms a cyst, but may follow up anyway.
and we were all so freakin' anxious to get boobs, remember? Ah well, I'll
keep you in my prayers and you keep us updated, please. Now, sleep well.
I want to thank you guys, THANX! You guys are great, all of you, and you
give great support when I need it most. You have a knack of making me feel
un-alone (is that a word?). Thanx!
I want to be positive and prayerful at the same time .
You, having been there once before, should trust your instincts!